Sueños Compartidos

Sueños Compartidos . Originally uploaded by Igor Alecsander.

I heart flickr.

This has been a particularly awful two weeks. My work was critiqued by ALL of my staff who rebelled against my ideas, needing to call in a mediator. In interviewed everyone, and said that not a single, solitary positive attribute came up in ANY of the interviews: the staff said I am (personally) "vague, incoherent, lack direction, no administrative, operational, or planning skills." This while I have been consciously focusing on being clear, focused, and to live up to everything I say I'm going to do. It's almost as if the exact opposite of my what I think is happening is what is really happening. It makes me very confused.

I am counting my blessings. I have a faithful family and valuable gifts. I am very close to cashing it in and just picking up on the several recent inquiries of me to do more web work, branding, and writing. I am trying to open my heart to see what I'm supposed to do. Thoughts of becoming a FLORIST go through my head. Going back to seminary. Taking a job as in communications in the corporate sector. Yikes.

I'm working on a project with a friend in Los Angeles—who also happens to be one of the people in my life who believes anything is possible—called SHOW US THE WAR, for a 'major blog site'. It's going to be very interesting, and shows me why I should be working more creatively perhaps. But I don't believe I am really so bad at running an organization.

It's a long row to hoe. I'm feeling particularly humble today, and just trying to stop the spinning.